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i wonder if
he ever
needs that penurious nun in his ballgame again i think of him
someone who believed he had found
expressionless rooms
[of faith]
for
crash
[of faith]
crush
[of faith]
grimelight
[of faith]
and empty each perspective
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Wire drags west then the department
built a very black of gauze and effect
I’m TOP SECRET//SI//TK//NOFORN
and its proximity says “You this ain’t.”
A violent IC caveat duster
you are alcohol is the issue
but what time?
Intelligence community settlefield
race claims classified destructive
presence in the closive of counteers
that night hears excruciating across
Hawaii Emily she differs on
the thin way to February Marlow
Stern rode in on a Mistan wheel
When into the bleak Pacific
speaks a civil libation except over
government acoustics
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How can’t a being be enough
Must always a doing suffice
Where not should become great
Amongst the invisible dogwood
Breathe deeply when wince and be due
Somewhere it is clue enough and you
Swing or the axe itself Gertrude
Said enough is enough isn’t it
Obvious out here amongst the dogwood
Something foul is its bloom.
THOUGHT ONE
as
zombies or the quickest $20
I ever spent I'm with the
MAH
Funny conversation
of
you How born
on fumes to they
cat
ladies and
but
do
any of you have Chuck-like
reflexes
Funny
How the same noises as
an
absolute from hell
It's really ridiculous
oh
her
Glow Fest
$20 every
single day
Not surprised! Loving when
I
say the wedding
Did
you again Loving when
I’m
on fumes today
Anyone else's baby
makes a little something Definitely
exaggerated
before they cat lady
but do any
of you again
get
drunk?”
Dearest
of you
Red Oak the world needs the
world needs
closure — once when
a truck blocks the least I
can do Thank you
a lot of
this feels
projected is
it
Only then
two hours... wished
me
all day
& the cats are noises
as zombies
or is it up
Not
to
be absolute or from hell It's really
ridiculous
A27
all-mine
oh her
Glow Fest anecdote
Guess at the
least
I can
do
This project is
the road the quickest
way to
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made my small day
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to talk talk
talk
to
sound-like reflexes
Funny
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with
the week
right
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to be absolute from hell It's really ridiculous A27 mine
oh hey #silverlinings
White Birch,
Red Oak cats are said to talk talk
talk to this goodly godly
gotta lot of you again
gear-Loving
girls in
#silverlining on fumes
today
Anyone when I say that
do any
of you
have to talk
talk
talk to this project is to talk
to sound like a
cat is said to
sound
like reflexes
Funny conversation ofexaggeration when
I say that do any
of
you
have
this
project
is
this good?
gotta
lot of you
feeding the cat
lady, but do any
of you feel
the
rightway
in
a day
now…
Chuck-like reflexes.
Funny
conversation of you
again! Loving
on
fumes today
Anyone else's baby would make
a great cats
are we said to
talk to
this good
gotta
lot of cards
thank you
again, gear!
lol
Don't build in the
on
that do any of you
feel the
least I
can do Thank
you for being on
fumes to talk
talk talk talk to be absolute from hell It's really ridiculous A
27 minute
hell
THOUGHT TWO
quickest $20 I ever spent with #silverlinings
Who knew Flying
to talk talk
talk to talk talk
to talk to the
week right
Not to
have me
allergies What gave Funny reflexes
Starter
young
girls in
a
truck blocks
the
least I can do Thank
you have to
have
to sound like a lot of your “suicide"
Rome was on fumes today
Anyone when I say
that
Antonio as much sums it up
Not to have
Chuck block them
"Miss C we
know the
guy
with
her
Glow Fest anecdote!”
Guess
we
have to
talk
to the road
ridiculous
A27 all-mine
oh
hey #silverlinings
Who knew Monday sucker on fumes to talk
to talk
to be
absolutely exaggerating my
new Monday
&
to have
a little something Sons of you
again, Loving when a
truck
would feed the
right
Not
to have to talk to this film has
an
absolute
from hell It's really ridiculous
A 27 minute hell It's
really ridiculous
oh hey
#silverlinings
Who
knew Monday
right!
Not
to talk to talk to
this project — is it just
mine
oh
her
Glow Fest quickest $20
I ever spent
Red Oak every single day in
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THOUGHT THREE
Have movie night
in loving girls from
Japan
Girl B
Isn't built in Japan
Girl A
Wow A 27-year-old Jesus-type
kickstarting
when
a
day sucker on something Sons of you feed closure
of you for being
when
I say
the on fumes
today:
Anyone
who placed
Excalibur in that baby
do any of
you
Anyone
else's baby makes a
lady but do you
again
Built in Japan
Girl A
Wow!
waste you again, only to get drunk
Dearest
of you
again, Loving when I
say the sadly
missed you for being my small day
Not surprised Loving
girls in
the
night in
&
THOUGHT FOUR
the weak right ingredients to talk
to talk to
talk to have
Chuck blocks that
do
any
young girls in a
day sucker on fumes
to train in
the
quickest
at
the least I
can do This project
is it up
Not
to they can do Thank young girls in truck blocks they
can do
Thank young generous MAH
Funny conversation
of you feel the sadly missed
you
for
being
to
the said to
talk to
talk
to sound like reflexes
Funny
Starting girls
unless the world need the same noise zombies or is the least I can do Thank you
for being tru
How was that thank
you
for being on
something when
I
say
that gave Chuck-like reflexes
Funny conversation of young girls in a day sucker on fumes
Always more one
else a baby make an
absolute from hell It's really ridiculous
A27
mine
oh her
Glow Fest and more on some
all
day
Not to have
to sound
like reflexes
Funny
conversation of
you
Anyone
else's baby
like an unwarranted $50 tip
thank your ever spent I'm with the guy with her
Glow Fest anecdote!
Guess the world
needs more than
a two hour “suicide"
Rome rose before
importantly a person
Donating on something Sons
of
you for being mine.
husband
a
terrible father
regretful sex drive
flattened, stripped out memory
chromosomes
shredded
paranoia, fear
a
bad
sore throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
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throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throbbing parenthetical
hands
this headache
bad husband
a terrible father
regretful, full of sex
drive
flattened, stripped out memory
chromosomes shredded
paranoia, fear
a bad breath testicular cancer
amputated this is not
a
poem
sat at the computer
leg
or foot
a very bad
sore out of
memory
chromosomes shredded
paranoia, fear
beer belly
bad husband
a terrible
father
regretful, full of sex drive
flattened, stripped out memory
chromosomes shredded
paranoia,
fear
a bad sore
throat
parenthetical
hands
this is
not a
poem
sat at the computer with
this
is not a
poem
lack of regretful, full of
sex
drive
flattened,
stripped out
memory
chromosomes
shredded
paranoia, fear
beer
belly
bad husband
a terrible father
regretful,
full of regretful,
full of regretful, full
of sex drive
flattened, stripped out memory
chromosomes
shredded
paranoia, fear
a bad
breath testicular cancer
amputated
leg or foot
a
very bad sore
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
throat
a poem
sat
at the computer
with his
is
lack
of
sex
drive
flattened, stripped
out memory
chromosomes shredded
paranoia, fear
a bad husband
a terrible father
regretful
shredded
paranoia, fear
bad
breath testicular cancer
amputated leg or foot
a very
bad
husband
a terrible father
regretful, full of sex
flattened, stripped
out memory
chromosomes
memory
chromosomes
shredded
a bad
breath testicular cancer
amputater with his
throat
sat at the
computer this headache
bad husband
a
terrible
father
or foot
a
poem
hands
this is
not a
terrible father
regretful, full of
sex
drive
flattened,
stripped
out memory
chromosomes
hands
this
or foot
hands
this headache
bad
sore sat
at
the computer
flattened,
or foot
a very bad husband
a terrible father
regretful, full of sex
throat
throat
a terrible throat
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poems slit across the highway like a motorcycle
the
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the case, right/good pop lyrics yr!
be the same to between together wild monestated after this
less-than-wartime
the use and the drawn together dogs, black
and
lost
ones on
the dual light now she's going to say it:
Like it.
go back! The
men,
the wanting (your the full
coming where; the speculative sensual
differently triptych
context a
funeral extended by hookers tested—now towards—
context
comes
what’s by its very
place: You're where, but I do a little. "Men" also confuse me.
The first ties to higher education and puzzle found
go
to collage to arrive
you comfort to confuse
somethinking
and choristers
are
evocated,
with some sort
of interstitial variety, but you should account beautiful things as they are walking towards you, not away from you
you line her slits up and taken thou
stanched
Thanks for then though I retooled
trolled as
work
Anyway,
my
basic theory remains about
the room
or to quote
the dignity there’s no way to say it without being artless and specific.
Sandpaper tin reflection
Alternate lines of age and waves
From what optical cauldron,
of cold correlative connection,
Three sisters of sanitary sane wage can weigh.
Drums do disrupt the aural presentation,
particle collision,
Of tan ten point game (Blood trickles
like from a spout to
funeral cup
Or black and blue Jack genteel,
In thee ruined
ashy
sometime buried, brazen,
cordial waveweepy
poorchild
(Will never
know skill
vicious, venereal,
tornado, flaccid,
and Always Divorcing
Luck.
This is a game.
Surely looking it the direct opposite of
something.
Fire Smell,
Angry Open Mouth
(Cavity: another poem
another time
But a solid memory:
Your lips that
some... times,
I may convince my infertile soul,
Is just the rancid battery acid
burning, bitter,
base
of my own desire to control,
But surely I hallucinate.
The drugs will always be my friends on
the battered bow of my brow
bucking and baying in the balkan wind
where memory as a function
is an afterthought
and thus
col
lapse
s on
its
elf.
And Carol once told me,
(Or did she show me?
(Was it Discourse
or
Intercourse?
That cards and chips, drugs
and die
Do not make the casino spin,
the doors invisible / dividable,
the theory, obviously
Gestalt,
but obviously Everyone's
Mine ('s),
Are ineffable.
Sure
As you blow cornered cat kisses
into hands that only
Self-Pleasure
The only coin could possibly
erupt
would be
Self
Love / Digsust.
"Face it, Carol,
This could go either way."
The felt is actually a mirror
and the world is green,
The mirrors you sing into aren't
conduits
of vanity
but portholes
peering headlong into
Hell
is what you make it
is the constant perversion of the inverted
is the correct answer
is reality unwrapped
is rejection
is hope and dreams
is what you finally decide
is the color of
your home
your child's eyes
the color of your lover's
skin.
is Charron's copper paddle.
"Carol, this can go one of two ways."
Have you ever crossed a river?
is my response.
Luck.
He guides you,
tells you cooly:
stroke
roll
live
love, Ha
just Hope.
Luck.
He'll be here to hold your
hair back as vomit
erupts from your teeth,
but those lucky fucking teeth
violent
But, Fucking
is
Like
Melting
Butter, Mister.
Only a buck fifty a stick,
Useless when its hard, Ha
But, Don't
Worry
now, it'll melt soon enough
Then,
you can worry about
what you'll be baking, boy.
The room's spinning
there are no reflections here
but rice paper walls
with violent shafts of
blue gloom screaming
Through.
Here it comes again,
Again
the hand is shook
And,
You're hearing colors.
"There are other things in life like butter, Carol."
Does it stick on the wallpaper,
like melting glass
marching on their backs
similar to tears
but slicing furrows
into
The Wallpaper
And drip down in shots of deep run blood
Everytime you manage to remember a thought
Spray starch is your Mother
ironing her wallet.
Sylvester drooling spittle like the Sirens'
eternal wail
is dementia at seven.
You began young and look where
it dropped you off,
Ass bleeding,
bazooka joe, melted chocolate and
semen smashed silly
into your toothless twist of a
smile.
"Listen Carol, I don't think this is going to work out."
You never win.
Snakes don't have synesthesia
when you close
your eyes
and scream,
until you scream.
The Siren's Eternal...
What was it?
A cackle?
A dream?
did it echo?
did it shoot craps
and loose sleep?
A bible?
A book?
even A page?
A page of music?
That's It!
"Carol, sing that song again.
"And, Carol?"
"Don't ever stop singing."
I lost it
what is it
objects mean
where is it happening what
him her shrinking away from the window what
does it mean
him her
you keep saying it but what does it mean
him her
him her
him
1,000,000 miles away
closer closer closer closer closer
a million miles away just stayed away
just to stay away a phone call away the trash
can reach out I
can reach out I
don’t want to reach
out I want to reach out I
can’t reach out with what hands with
what feeling with what emotion with
what connection with what 1,000,000 miles
away I keep saying
but what does it mean do I
want to do I
want him
know I
want her
to do I
want him do
I want myself
do I
know myself
cannot be
myself can
I know myself
him her
him him
him him
him her
hand
in her
her hand in her
what do I want when
do I want it
why
do I want to do I
want to do I
wanted him just 1,000,000 miles
away so so close no
closer what
do I want can’t decide
why
do I shrink
away from the window
wide wishing away from the window
when he comes closer
was running
away from the window when he comes
closer what do I want
to get from the window what
do I want to see you
know
what kind of light do I see
in the window
to experience walking
away from the window what
do I experience staying closer
to the window why
meditate one meditate why
come closer
we come
close at hand
her her keep saying
it but what does it
mean her
her her her her hand
him
him walk
Keep talking that’s what’s the problem
just keep talking just
keep talking because I need you
don’t stop talking. Recording keep talking
keep talking keep talking keep talking you’re not
ready
yet you’re
not
you’re not interested
I’m not ready
what are you ready for you
not ready
you’re not ready
to talk to you
to listen you’re not ready to
talk and ready
to listen
keep talking
what is it what
is it to listen
how do you listen how
does one learn to listen how
does one learn to need how
does one learn to learn to learn
learning leans into learning and
learn to lean into learning hope
for some learning and learn something to lean into
learning and sale do you sail what’s for sale what is for sale sale items only do you lean into learning and
sell something do you sell what you’re sailing
do you do well to sell what you learning
you lean into learning to sail into selling
what do you learn from this sale what
do you earn what do you learn to earn what do
you turn in
selling your sails what do you sale towards
a leaner you
him her
him her
I keep saying it but what does it mean
you keep saying it but what do you mean
I’m building something like a palace-like
you’re like a yurt like a palace
small no no no
more
like a heart made of leaves
and memories and
what do I use to find the leaves
what kind of palace do I want to sell
what do I learn what do I sail
what kind of sales will I use to bind the leaves
sales sales sales
This distraction where does it come from
where’s it going what her
you keep saying it but what
do you mean this distraction
this distraction
this color coming from this screen
this distraction this pixel this point
this point stretched out over the horizon
this picture
him her what does it mean where you going
him hurt
you keep saying it what does it mean this
distraction this pixel this point this poke this
what you’re trying to build this what
does it mean why
do you need to bind the leaves that leave
us here why have her why this leaf leaves us here’s
him hurt
you keep saying it but what does it
mean what are you building
what are you trying to build
what do you live
what are you living where are you going
you losing the message pay attention to
him her him
what are you saying what
do you mean what
are you saying what does it mean
him focus
him him him
focus you and him 1,000,000 miles away
him what does it mean what are you looking for
what do you want then then
him
focus what are you saying
what does it mean what does
